Colourless Butterfly

I flit, I flutter, I fly, immersed in drunken happiness...But what's the use? It all ends. Everything will end one day...

And when it does, I sit in a corner. I take off my colourful cloak, leaving white and black clothes hanging limply on my body. The moments of happiness are gone. They were only temporary. They didn't last.

I flit; lifelessly. I flutter; pathetically. I fly; weakly. Nothing lasts.

But those moments of joy...they paint colours in my life.

Too bad that in the end, the rain falls and washes all these colours away...

Why isn't the paint permanent?

A facade. That's what my cloak of a thousand colours is...a mere facade. A facade to hide the loneliness, despair and grief underneath.

I am the colourless butterfly.

Today

Happy Chinese New Year, everyone! Well, all Chinese, that is.

Lots of red packets to collect. =) I feel rich already.

$10 is a lot to me, y'know.

Ok, gotta go. This is just a short post. I'm going cycling now.

Stasya

Me, Myself, I

Mountains, rivers, valleys, trees,
Put them together and get a dream.
Boa Constrictors, alligators and bees,
Put them together; how horrible they seem!

My poetry skills aren't as good as before. They're quite rusty. The above poem is composed by me, and it's a far cry from what I used to be able to compose...

Hopefully my skills will return. Poetry is another world, to me. My skills are the key to that world; without them, I can't enter.

I visited Zhonghua today. Mr. Liew only paid attention to the guys and ignored the girls except to say hello. At least I got to see my classmates! I miss them so much. It's almost as if I've never left them.

Besides, now the canteen in Zhonghua seems so much smaller. I guess I'm getting used to the canteen in SNGS.

Ms Ong couldn't recognize me at first when I greeted her.

I also ran six floors up (without stopping. My stamina has improved!) to my 6A04 classroom. My locker hasn't been used yet, but maybe it will be sooner or later... =(

I also visited the Prefect's Room. Password hasn't changed! I nearly freaked out when I had some difficulties in locking the door again (non-prefects aren't allowed inside), but thankfully I somehow succeeded in the end.

I also returned a book to the free access bookshelf beside the study area...I forgot to return it last year! Hehe...

I said hello to Mrs Choy, but that was all. She left after that.

Going home was rather upsetting, and inwardly emotional for me. I hadn't taken that route for so long, hadn't walked along the walkway in ages. I hadn't bought stuff from the shop on the void deck for so long. I did all of that today. I wish I hadn't left Zhonghua.

Mrs Lee wasn't there. Mrs Foo wasn't there. Ms Normala wasn't there. Mrs Ong wasn't there. All of the teachers I wanted so much to see (excluding Mr. Liew, but he doesn't really count. He actually ignored the girls.) weren't there.

But it was a nice visit. My friends were there, at the very least. Hopefully my next visit to Zhonghua will come soon.

Stasya

Enlightenment For The Time Being

I've figured my current predicament out; the one containing all the hurt, anger, indignance, sorrow etc. In other words, my leaving Zhonghua.

I'm holding on to two ropes, suspended in mid-air, dangling precariously off the edge of a high cliff. Letting of both will mean instantaneous death.

The first rope represents SNGS, my current school. The second rope represents ZPS, my (very beloved) Primary School.

The second rope is frayed and is tied to a wobbly rock at the top of the cliff.

The first rope is in a perfectly fine condition, and is being held by a group of strong people on top of the cliff.

I should let go of the second rope and concentrate fully on climbing up the first rope.

But it's so hard to forget. I'll leave that task to time; the latter has miraculously cures for injuries.

And breakaway...Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye.

Recently...

I'm happy, exuberated, excited...Elated, Ecstatic, Over the moon...I can't think of any more right now, maybe next time? =)

Ok, I can return to ZPS on the 8th for sure, because SNGS is letting us off early that day! (Chinese New Year celebrations.)

ZPS, here I come!

I like to lie alot. Like I said, I'll make sure you never forget.

Stasya

P.S. Sorry for the short entry; I can't think of anymore to write - or type -.